Last night I was sitting in a prayer room in Iowa City with a dear friend, Sam.  She and I decided to start blogs.  We will both be graduating in the next year and thought about how cool it would be to keep a record of how God guides us in our lives over the next couple of years.  It is so exciting! This blog could be a way to communicate with people how we are pursuing the Lord, and what He is teaching us.  I came to Iowa City four years ago to start my freshman year at the University of Iowa, and this city has grown on me every year since I have lived here.  I am so thankful for the opportunity to study here- I love learning and it is such a blessing to have an education, I am truly grateful.  I think of all the years that have passed since I moved into Burge Hall freshman year.  I remember crying my eyes out when my mom left, spending weekends studying, football games, learning what a real friendship looks like, waking up early and walking to the hospital for clinicals, themed parties, pranks.  College has been such a huge blessing.  I think the thing that I am most thankful for is that I came to Iowa City with barely any direction, I didn't know who I was, what I was majoring in, what made me happy, what I was passionate about, and where my heart belonged.  Four years later I recognize that I have so much to learn, so many areas to grow in.  But I know my major, I love nursing- the art and science of caring for people.  But more importantly, I know who has all of my heart's affections, I have a purpose, I have experienced deep joy and satisfaction- more than I ever knew possible.  God captured my heart here. I am not sure how, and I don't know why- why would he bother to pursue me so passionately?  I really don't know.  But I am so grateful for the people that God placed in my life to point me to Him.  God is writing the most epic story in all of history, and He pursued me passionately because He had a role for me to play in His story.  That seems so ridiculous to me.  I am the reserved one, the one behind the scenes, I feel like my high school years I went without being noticed.  So why would God want me in His story?  What role could He possibly have for me?

I don't know that answer.  But the intent of this blog is to record how I am pursuing God's purpose for me on this earth.  The best part is, I feel like I finally have some kind of a purpose. Thank God that He found me here and I am so excited to continue walking with Him and experiencing the joy that I know can only be found in Him.  I know myself, I know that I will probably mess up so much.  God is so glorious but I feel like I am often like the Israelites and I tend not to remember God's glory and what He has done.  I am "prone to wander, prone to leave the God I love."  But God is faithful.  2 Timothy 2:13 says "If we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself."

As Sam as I sat in a building downtown Iowa City last night (after dancing in a rainstorm), we were talking about what we might title these "blogs."  I was almost getting stressed about it, I wanted a title that would perfectly encompass everything that my life would revolve around in the next several years.  I looked at some of my favorite passages- 2 Corinthians 3 talks about being transformed into God's likeness in a way that reflects more and more of God's glory.  How cool is that?  What an epic promise, who wouldn't want to be more like Jesus, I have seen minimally who God is and even at that limited view I cannot help but see how glorious He is!  Another passage that I love is Philippians 2:5-11.  It talks about Jesus leaving his position in heaven to come to this earth as  a lowly servant.  He was obedient to death.  The humility of Jesus absolutely fascinates me.  Another passage.  I think about the Lord's prayer.  "thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven."  Heaven is going to be so great, I often wish I could just go there and be with the Lord, be in His presence.  But then I think of how Paul thought that too.  Paul knew that even though he would rather be in heaven- if he was on earth his life was going to be Christ.  In that, he saw God's kingdom coming on earth.  He saw unbelievers believe, people who did not know Jesus began worshipping Jesus.

Anyways, all of these cool passages came to mind as I was brainstorming a title, they have all been significant passages in my life, in teaching me who God is and what His purpose is.  And then I thought of what I have been learning recently.  In the New Testament Jesus calls us to obey.  He doesn't call as to be in a certain "situation" or "position" (1 Corinthians 7: 17-24) but simply to obey despite our situation, "keeping God's commands is what counts."    As I graduate college and decide on "next steps" I do not want it to be following someone else's vision or plan.  I just want to obey Jesus.  He has something so great for my life and I think the more I obey Him, the more faith I will have in Him and the greater ways He will use me to further His kingdom on earth.  I want to fix my eyes on Jesus himself, not a "plan" or a "strategy" to follow Jesus.  Just look at Jesus himself, follow Him, not the plan.  Anyways.  I pray that this blog can be a record of what God is teaching me, a record of people I meet and the wisdom I receive from them, and a record of obedience.  Typing that is so scary to me because I feel like I am so disobedient to the Lord so often, but I pray for obedience in my life. 

"The most important one," answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel,

the Lord our God, the Lord is one.  Love the Lord your God with all your

 heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all

your strength.'  The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'

There is no commandment greater than these."